How do you scream at the universe?

I am watching the show Nashville and the scene is about a woman writing a song, she is having trouble with the bridge and it isn’t helping that a homeless man in the block next door for three days straight screams about “PEPPERONI PIZZA GOTTA GET ME A SLICE”
So she finally buys him some food and takes it out, and he says “lil pixie you don’t get it, it’s not about the pie it’s about yelling loud enough so that the universe doesn’t forget you exist!”
It got me thinking, he isn’t talking about literally screaming so loud, you see as you all by now know as a kid I was seriously molested and how I screamed was to be physical, physical at school ,I was expelled for fighting from so many schools in one year I still hold the record for being expelled from the highest amount of schools in one school year 35 years later.
Physical, I became a black belt in not one but two martial arts and a high level in a third.
Physical, I had a secondary career to restaurants as one of Australia’s most feared bouncers and body guards, and when I wasn’t physical I was on TV or stage doing standup comedy, just another way of screaming.
I screamed at the universe in so many ways the only way to dim the noise was to take so many drugs and drink so much alcohol I had to go to rehab.
Great athletes scream at the universe with their skill, great writers scream through their books. Disabled people scream through their post injury brilliance and if you’re in that dark place that so many of us know so well you have to work out how to scream.
What is so important to you that you have to let it out?
I am not talking about being loud, I am not talking about being dominant,There is a scripture that says “SO LIVE YOUR LIFE IT DEMANDS A QUESTION”
What question does your life demand? Are you the next otter bailey? Are you the next Wheelz fotheringham, are you the next mike box?do you have a head full of wheelchair designs so radical they will make our lives better? Or is your life in a lab with stem cells curing paralysis?
Whatever it is it is that light above the dark hole that so many of us see from the bottom, If like me you live with PTSD and spend a lot of time in that dark hole that place of flash backs and depression.
Focus on what it is you have that you need to scream to the universe, start a company, write a book, land your first back flip in a wheelchair. Just because a bunch of nerds with md after their names told you your life was changed forever, that you’d never walk or see again, or that from now on you’d live with anyone of a thousand other diagnosis on the spectrum of disability doesn’t mean it’s time to choose teak or pine or trip off this mortal coil. Quite the opposite, if not now I don’t know when is a better time for you to scream, for you to shine, to finally walk in your truth.
Whether you fail a thousand times or are successful right off the back it doesn’t matter, because no one learns anything from success true legends failed a thousand times before they got it right so when will you start ?

Author: disabledaccessdenied

I am a disabled woman who through no fault of my own has wheels under my ass. I rely on the decency and common sense of local, state and federal goverments, as well as the retail community to abide by the disabled access laws and provide adequate ramps, disabled toilets, and not use them as store rooms or broom closets. This blog exists to find the offenders and out them, inform them, and report them if necessary and shame them into doing the right thing when all else fails.

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