Just because you’re not screaming doesn’t mean your words don’t cut to the bone
People tell me I scream, and I get angry I have anger issues? And maybe I do. But just because someone isn’t screaming back at you doesn’t mean their words can’t be hate filled can’t hurt just as much. When every sentence has a sarcastic whip on the end it may as well be laced with every disgusting curse word ever thought up. When someone says something and that thing is then denied sometimes only seconds later it leaves you doubting your own sanity and when someone who says they care can make you doubt your own sanity they may as well be screaming FUCK YOU.
Someone can be standing in front of you with a light making them seem saintly but if through a smile they make you feel like they just scraped you off their shoe with that smile they may as well stick you with a knife. How are you meant to reply to subtle quietly spoken words that hurt like the sharpest cuts?
You can love someone more than life itself but if the words they speak make you question your place in a room, question your place on earth how can you stay? Being disabled is hard ,it’s the hardest physical thing you can work through but when a friend a lover or a wife disables your soul what kind of mobility device to you use for that?